I just don't care anymore. And the way they make it sound, its like grades are everything that define me. Life is what you make of it. Sure, missing out on an adolescence to care for a terminally ill half sister in the face of an abusive, alcoholic mother wasn't easy, but it wasn't like i was physically abused and doesn't everyone have things in their life that they've come through bigger and better. This time this is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My powers turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care If nobody else believes Cause I've still got A lot of fight left in me Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep Everybody's worried about me In too deep they say I'm in too deep And it's been two years I miss my home But there's a fire burning in my bones And I still believe yeah I still believe And all those things I didn't say Wrecking balls inside my brain I will scream them loud tonight Can you hear my voice? This time this is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My powers turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care If nobody else believes Cause I've still got A lot of fight left in me A lot of fight left In me Like a small boat on the ocean Sending big waves into motion Like how a single word Can make a heart open I might only have one match But I can make an explosion This is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My powers turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care If nobody else believes Cause I've still got A lot of fight left in me Now I've still got a lot of fight left in me. I don't make decisions if I'm severely depressed and isolated. Maybe you have a pet or a friend has a pet you can hold? They finally leave and I pack a few things and start driving.
If she really does have all these disorders depression and previous eating disorder then she needs professional help because try as you might you can not help her in this area. Things were fine for a couple of weeks but for the next month and a half things seemed rather half hearted on both our parts until we had about 4 serious fights. Now my parents are giving me the same alternative choices just so i could pass my last year lol. I'll forever be the guy that killed himself. I'm too tired to keep going.
To wrestle denotes hand to hand combat. Do you have any friends or relatives who might be happy to hear from you tomorrow? I will be a failure. And all I had was a half a red bull and water. Take it one day at a time, man. When we first started dating, everything was fine, casual and at about 3 months into the relationship, it started to get really serious and everything has been fine, with very little fights until about late October. The only thing even forcing me to live? That must have hurt like a bitch.
I fought my way through college but now I have 55k worth of debt. They are stagnant brain dead, career dead, bigoted, self-important etc or not interested in improving themselves. I love what I do, I love to go out there and train. I love to train with high intensity. It's good to have someone in the real world knowing what's going on. We are at the end now, but we will continue her fight.
I convinced myself it was for my family. She told me that we should prob go on a break for me because I am not happy anymore as I told her that my happiness heavily relied on her happiness and as I really believed she was happy before, and only depressed whenever we fought, I made sure for the past couple of months that we did not fight whatsoever, when she then told me she was depressed. If you have nothing, what have you to loose? And then you have the rest of everybody else just trying to make it. If a person has always been successful, they most likely haven't really been doing all the work. In reading what you did last night I think you feel really bad, possibly ashamed, and out of control.
Have you considered going to hospital to see if you have a concussion? This world has given me nothing but obstacles. But not all of the time. I don't take any pills anymore, they process of taking them just makes me feel even worse, i mean how bad does it sound, no real problems and yet i have to take a small pill to get me through the day. If I were you I would dump your boyfriend and his friends. I do try to drown the noise. Edit: Who downvoted me any why? But they keep being abusive.
Because there are those who are willfully defeated by the enemy, not putting to use that which God hath given. There are times i just want to run away from them. It's not that I have a problem with them being close to each other, it is probably a great thing, it's just that my feelings are so hurt because. We have lots of ups and downs so recently. I've tried other therapies, but none of them have seemed to have worked either.
I also suggest force yourself to go through some of the top links of all time there and I guarantee you will feel better. I have been sober now from alcohol for just a few days. But Im scared of doing it myself. In fact, the problem are with people who push those who care away. But, despite this perspective on things, and though I've just hit a personal wall of zero-drive to do anything because it seems like anything I do tends to be a waste of my own time with little accomplished. I am going to lose.